today i woke up a little lazy and tired, it was raining. So i decided to do the exercise laying in bed for 2 h. Legs up in different variations, mainly holding positions where i felt my muscles’ tension and effort.
I didnt listen to anything, i tried to enter in a meditative state. i decided to do it without any clothes in my legs so the morning cold was challenging at the beggining. My mind protested: confort! but i hold to the determination, not as an act of will, i leaned on the passivity, like it didnt belong to me anymore to decide.
Clearly the rebel mind get into a more easy going mood after the first hour, by glimps i felt the smile of god inside, renouncing to any doership, without fragmentation or judgement in the sensations
remembering again and again, home: sat cit ananda, existence consciousness bliss.